Complicated legally young lady

Scrawling upon my intuition to be an ingenious legally young lady. i was gutted,.. by unabated thought of mind that i wasn't capable of it

To serve for nation,to instruct on the smooth machinery of social engineering and to extract errands from constitution. I was half blinded .

Safeguarding myself from applying the steam of positive thinking wholly,..I guessed I should adopt the deflected consequences to be transform into massive triumph

Further onward, to preserve for the antennae of leadership and the boldness of inalienable chronology. Substantially, I lost in my own imperfection.


To some extent.., I shriveled. Dwell in fear of failure, there was nothing much I could do to alter.
From now on, I was enormously in need for inspiration to succeed,..
or merely, I would never will. :)

Surreal saying

More of the things I've hidden from,have pushed away,pushed me to the front,pushed me down and pushed behind me were cascading out in embarrassing yet ambiguous mess..A mess that have been created at the first place without any concerns and others supervision..which destroys me into pieces,become vulnerable and coated with a film of guilt,anxiety and shame..Out of my sight,I'm a person who doesn't believe in L.O.V.E...Years and years being told as ugly,and terrorized by the Body Dimorphic Disorder..,builds the inner me,becoming defensive and living with a hard time dealing without the love ingredients. I've been bombarded with abuse by a different degree of peoples,from the ones I've known for ages,traitors and also strangers who only spend a single minute term to chew on perception,impression and opinion. Confession from the soul of mine "no matter how many times i was called beautiful,i would look into the mirror and see a ugly person"..its like for a few seconds i see what is there,then the haze disappears and i see this grotesque monster..-this have the type of scars that will never completely heal.I hope all sense of it proves me something fundamentally wrong..,and the love will goes to pass me by.SOON~

IM JUST A GIRL

I'm just a GIRL..with a dream that got the best of me.Of all illusions and reverie,I'm standing up to catch the clouds, blow the winds ,count the rains and paint the rainbows..up to every ages in my life,cycling the life's route,as i am on how it takes me,as i am on how it burdens me hence as i am on how it makes me 'me'..maybe who I'm today,ain't so far from yesterday.Because merely I'm just a GIRL. I don't know about tomorrows,because all i have is today.Whatever it takes,though it is beyond my power to predict the future,still, I want to skip the idle-nonprofit-creeping term of today's life,with loves and dares, through sugars and spices..Wrenching my heart to forget the past because I'm just a GIRL.Can i find a way to every part of me? I'm lost in my own sorority, my own grudge,my own history that showed me what living is for. Thus, I don't wanna hide anymore ..there is nothing out of reach. In a mean-while,Ive strengthen my wills,bruising my thoughts and nibbling my fears because I'm just a GIRL.Rather to describe myself as bicular,passive and hidden,I'm bow to commit myself for everyone.,but just that,I'm trembled to show the real me to others.Is there anyone who will bound to understand me,listening to every words of mine? Maybe someday,down the road, i will sit back and said to myself," I thought so I'm unpredictable, because I'm just a GIRL"..